I believe that letting yourself being vulnerable to others can be therapeutic for you as well as to the person that listens to you.
Today I’m going to tell you more about my panic & anxiety attacks. I want to show example that it’s ok to talk about your feelings and being heard. If you go through similar problems, I want you to see that you are not alone and encourage you to let out your thoughts. You will feel so much better!
For me, my “attacks” have all different syndromes depending on what triggers them. Having a trigger won’t have always an effect on me, sometimes I can get through an event without having any attack. On the other hand, I can also have an attack without any particular reason.
With time I’ve grown a certain self-awareness that helps me manage those problems. I can “dissociate” from myself and calm me down.
Below I’ll show you some triggers and symptoms that I get:
It’s late evening and I have intrusive thoughts.
I could be thinking about world problems such as poverty, famine, inequality. Or I could be thinking about my close ones pass away. Or even think about something I said to someone.
Before I know it, my mind creates a chain reaction of thoughts. I go from one point of view to another. There are so many thoughts, that I start losing track. Eventually I’m going to start crying, because I’m completely overwhelmed hearing plenty of voices all at once.
At some point I’m going to realize what’s going on and talk myself out of it. My body going to shake involuntarily, starting with leg kicks, then my chest, then all my body. Sometimes my eyes are going also in all directions. It literally feels as if I was fighting against myself, because I’m trying to contradict my destructive thoughts.
After I’ve calmed myself, I like to meditate and do my breathing exercises before falling asleep.
I’m with a group people I know, someone said a word or a key phrase that brough some bad memories up.
I’m with people that I like and know, often had a glass of alcohol when it happens. All of sudden I feel disconnected and absent. I try to follow conversations and smile, but deep down I am thinking about something else.
The worst part being “away” mentally, is that I believe that people are talking about me. I’m quite paranoid during the attacks, and I can hear people say lots of things, which I know that in facts aren’t said. This is the hardest part. If I manage to convince myself that this isn’t true, I won’t have an attack. If I let myself go, well, all is below.
I sometimes might hear voices in my head saying I’m unworthy or doesn’t fit in.
My body and head feel extremely light; however, my lungs feels like they are squashed. It’s hard to get enough air.
I don’t know how to position myself; I don’t want others to read my body language. I’ll just think a lot about my head, arms and legs.
I feel like I just want to stand up and run away, but Inside I’m trying to keep myself calm. Usually, I’ll just have to go to the bathroom and do some breathing and awareness exercises in front of the mirror.
After I managed to calm myself, I can go back and the problem won’t come back again.
I’m at a social event, having to interact with lots of strangers.
This one is the worst for me. I always think I’m about to die from my heart attack.
Before the event I brief the person who accompany me, to not leave me alone. But I’m quite aware that it’s hard to do at a social event.
The worst is when I have to present myself to more than one person at once. This only happens when I do not feel like I’m in control of a situation. If I feel like I lead, it comes to me naturally.
First thing is the numbness; All of sudden I feel like all my blood is rushing to my head. My ears get warm, and I can’t hear correctly. Almost feels like in the movie, when the character gets hit in the head with basketball bat.
My mouth becomes dry, I keep biting the tip of my tongue to keep it wet. All the muscles in my throat are contracted, it feels like I can’t breathe.
I don’t know what I’m saying, mentally I pass out. I’m making short phrases because I don’t have any air to go through my vocal cords. I feel like my voice is on helium.
My hands get all sweaty, sometimes I’ll feel a drop of sweat running through my back.
The funny part is that people who know and accompany me always finds me exceptional during social networking and talking to others.
Again, I will often go to the bathroom and just try to calm myself with breathing and awareness exercises.
I hope that my little story helped you a bit. I’m sharing all this with you to show that it’s ok and that it’s ok to seek for help when you feel like you need it. There is nothing to be ashamed of.
It’s never easy to put your personal stories out there, but it’s rewarding. If you have a story worth sharing on my blog:
How to share your story?
Go on the page Share your story and just send me a brief description of a story you think could make an impact on someone’s else life. Once I get your message, I will get back to you by email and from there I will ask you more questions. It will be like an interview, where you’ll have a chance to talk me through your story. I will take care of taking everything and putting on the blog.
If you feel like it, please share your worst “attacks” stories with me in the comment section down below.
It is important for you to surround yourself with people who will challenge you to become your better self, people who will push you to do better each day.
Under Attack
I believe that letting yourself being vulnerable to others can be therapeutic for you as well as to the person that listens to you.
Today I’m going to tell you more about my panic & anxiety attacks. I want to show example that it’s ok to talk about your feelings and being heard. If you go through similar problems, I want you to see that you are not alone and encourage you to let out your thoughts. You will feel so much better!
For me, my “attacks” have all different syndromes depending on what triggers them. Having a trigger won’t have always an effect on me, sometimes I can get through an event without having any attack. On the other hand, I can also have an attack without any particular reason.
With time I’ve grown a certain self-awareness that helps me manage those problems. I can “dissociate” from myself and calm me down.
Below I’ll show you some triggers and symptoms that I get:
I could be thinking about world problems such as poverty, famine, inequality. Or I could be thinking about my close ones pass away. Or even think about something I said to someone.
Before I know it, my mind creates a chain reaction of thoughts. I go from one point of view to another. There are so many thoughts, that I start losing track. Eventually I’m going to start crying, because I’m completely overwhelmed hearing plenty of voices all at once.
At some point I’m going to realize what’s going on and talk myself out of it. My body going to shake involuntarily, starting with leg kicks, then my chest, then all my body. Sometimes my eyes are going also in all directions. It literally feels as if I was fighting against myself, because I’m trying to contradict my destructive thoughts.
After I’ve calmed myself, I like to meditate and do my breathing exercises before falling asleep.
I’m with people that I like and know, often had a glass of alcohol when it happens. All of sudden I feel disconnected and absent. I try to follow conversations and smile, but deep down I am thinking about something else.
The worst part being “away” mentally, is that I believe that people are talking about me. I’m quite paranoid during the attacks, and I can hear people say lots of things, which I know that in facts aren’t said. This is the hardest part. If I manage to convince myself that this isn’t true, I won’t have an attack. If I let myself go, well, all is below.
I sometimes might hear voices in my head saying I’m unworthy or doesn’t fit in.
My body and head feel extremely light; however, my lungs feels like they are squashed. It’s hard to get enough air.
I don’t know how to position myself; I don’t want others to read my body language. I’ll just think a lot about my head, arms and legs.
I feel like I just want to stand up and run away, but Inside I’m trying to keep myself calm. Usually, I’ll just have to go to the bathroom and do some breathing and awareness exercises in front of the mirror.
After I managed to calm myself, I can go back and the problem won’t come back again.
This one is the worst for me. I always think I’m about to die from my heart attack.
Before the event I brief the person who accompany me, to not leave me alone. But I’m quite aware that it’s hard to do at a social event.
The worst is when I have to present myself to more than one person at once. This only happens when I do not feel like I’m in control of a situation. If I feel like I lead, it comes to me naturally.
First thing is the numbness; All of sudden I feel like all my blood is rushing to my head. My ears get warm, and I can’t hear correctly. Almost feels like in the movie, when the character gets hit in the head with basketball bat.
My mouth becomes dry, I keep biting the tip of my tongue to keep it wet. All the muscles in my throat are contracted, it feels like I can’t breathe.
I don’t know what I’m saying, mentally I pass out. I’m making short phrases because I don’t have any air to go through my vocal cords. I feel like my voice is on helium.
My hands get all sweaty, sometimes I’ll feel a drop of sweat running through my back.
The funny part is that people who know and accompany me always finds me exceptional during social networking and talking to others.
Again, I will often go to the bathroom and just try to calm myself with breathing and awareness exercises.
I hope that my little story helped you a bit. I’m sharing all this with you to show that it’s ok and that it’s ok to seek for help when you feel like you need it. There is nothing to be ashamed of.
It’s never easy to put your personal stories out there, but it’s rewarding. If you have a story worth sharing on my blog:
Go on the page Share your story and just send me a brief description of a story you think could make an impact on someone’s else life. Once I get your message, I will get back to you by email and from there I will ask you more questions. It will be like an interview, where you’ll have a chance to talk me through your story. I will take care of taking everything and putting on the blog.
If you feel like it, please share your worst “attacks” stories with me in the comment section down below.
Until next time,
Paul
Related Posts
When opportunity knocks, grab your chance!
If you want you could go always straight, but what’s stopping you from making a turn? Let’s find out!
Free yourself!
Do you feel like you’re holding back because of what other people might think? If the answer is yes, this blog is for you!
Choose your entourage wisely
It is important for you to surround yourself with people who will challenge you to become your better self, people who will push you to do better each day.
How to move forward?
Everyone at some point of life goes through some upsetting experiences. Have you been bullied? Have you lost a friend or lover?